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Praise the Lord it is worship Wednesday! If you are anything like me and nothing at all like me, we together are in a perfect place to pause and give grace. Grace to each other, grace to ourselves, grace to our children, and even yes I am going there…. grace to our in-laws, neighbors, strangers hidden and woven into the tapestry of our...
It is hard to believe a year has passed since I received
“that” call. Maybe you received “that”
call just today, yesterday, last week, or six years ago. You know the kind of call that knocks the
wind out of your lungs. Doesn’t matter if you’re expecting it or not, nothing
can prepare you for the tightening of lungs.
Torrential tears down poured from my
face. Time is fleeting. In my young naivenes
I don’t think I truly realized just how quickly time rolls away. Fleeting.
Just like, “the blink of an eye” they would say. “Here today, gone tomorrow”. None of this meant anything to the depths of
my core until after I had children. I
have slowly started understanding the value of time and just how fast it
goes. So hard to believe my littles are
almost four and two.
The day I got that call it was as though my heart began to hemorrhage. I couldn’t stop the bleeding. The finality of knowing I’d never see her face,
hear her voice, touch her skin, smell her sweet scent, or watch her feeble hands
crochet was unbearable.
I wondered what it would be like from here on out. It has been much of the same just without her
smile. Funny thing is I smile more now
when I think about her than when she was with us during her last few
months. Just thinking of her precious
life makes me smile even on the worst days. This may sound lopsided loopy I know that I
smile more now that she is in heaven then when she was on earth, but it is
true. I smile knowing she lived full,
and she lives full now in His presence. Now re-united with her love, and
children who went before her she is fully there. She wasn’t fully all here even though she was
here. Her tired mind had faded. Memories were lost. Even though she couldn’t remember a lot, and
had forgotten most of her life, she never forgot to love.
Even while she suffered the loss of her sweet mind she never
lost her ability to love and smile. I
pray I too never loose my ability to smile or love. I will loose a lot of things in this life,
but I never want to loose my ability to smile or love.