Fragile Handle with Care: Part 2
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Fragile Handle with Care Part 1
Hesitation poured over my broken heart as I was moved into an unfamiliar place. This place was different than the places my heart had inhabitant in times past. This place was warm, inviting, secure, peaceful, pleasant, and altogether lovely. My heart had not felt peace of this magnitude since before the night death took root in my heart at the tender age of three. (Read more here about the dreaded night death knocked on my door)
If I allow myself to feel the deep pain of remembering the
past, I can recall her soft voice. I
haven’t heard this voice since before the night death treaded through my home
and left me filled with devastation, fear, and anger. Attempting to destroy my
fragile heart I was left alone in darkness.
This place of darkness is where I hid for many years holding tightly to
what I thought would protect and keep me from feeling pain and loss.
Quietly and gently He began to speak to me. His voice was like a light that dimly lit my
darkened heart. I was ready; I longed to
listen for hours. I hadn’t heard a voice
with such care and tenderness since before the dreaded night death came to
dwell in my heart and home. His voice was safe, His place was safe, this move
was safe, I was, and I am safe.
His voice began to sing over me and quieted me with the
hushed tones of love. As he removed
every piece of my heart and tended to the sharp, ridged edges, His touch began
to bring life to my dead spirit. The bubble wrap of un-forgiveness had suffocated my heart, leaving me lifeless.
I began to feel the pains of brokenness yet again; this
brokenness was not like that of before.
The brokenness I felt this time around was one of healing.
How can this be?
Brokenness that births forgiveness,
births healing
and new life.
My heart crushed under the pressure of His hand, now a fine
dust; dust and dirt that HE would use to recreate in me a clean heart. A broken
and contrite heart He would not deny.
Was this brokenness actually for something good, to serve a greater
purpose? This brokenness I was horridly
ashamed of, these were the pieces he crushed and used in order to recreate a
beautiful vessel.
This heart would come to find brokenness forged along side
with forgiveness is beautiful, absolutely breathtaking, jaw dropping kind of
exquisite beauty. The kind of beauty one
can only find in the early morning sunrises painted across the sky by the Magnificent
Artist Himself.
This heart would not be denied, left for death, NO this
heart would be accepted and experience life in the light of His glory and love.
Forgiveness, found me.
Moved me into a place, presence mere words can’t describe. In His presence there is fullness of joy,
love everlasting, healing for even the most deeply hurt individual.
Forgiveness moved me into the Potter’s house. The Potter’s House is where I now abide. I only move when He moves me from the shelf
to use me for His purposes. I continue
even to this day to experience brokenness, but this brokenness is one that He
uses to make me into HIS earthen vessel.
A vessel, He can work, and move through.
A vessel who strives to be quick to forgive, for that is what He filled
me with.
Now filled with Forgiveness, I mustn’t hold tightly onto it
as before with un-forgiveness, I must relinquish this love, forgiveness, I have
been given. I am His and He is
mine. Eager to give, what I longed for
so many years to have, forgiveness freed me, healed me, and now I desire for
others to experience this same kind of freedom.
This soul anchoring HOPE that only comes from HIM.
Would you allow yourself to trust, love, forgive; move out
of depression, resentment, anger, anxiety and into the presence of the
Almighty? It’s moving day for you and
there is a place just for you at the Potter’s House.
12 comments
Beautiful post! God calls us to be light in the world too. "Let your light shine before others that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven."
ReplyDeleteThank you. How are some of the ways that you shine your light? I try to shine in simple ways, number one with my heart and attitude. I read something the other day that said, "Be the reason someone smiles today." I am finding there are more and more broken people out there than I realized hiding behind facades, just like me. I want to be the one who brings them hope, even if it is with a kind word or a smile. :)
DeleteLaura, I try to shine my light by being kind, showing compassion, etc through the little things too like showing a smile. You are right. I too think there are so many broken people out in the world who are hiding behind facades. I love what you said about being the one who brings them hope. I hope I can be that person too.
DeleteI know you can, it is important to know you have the ability to change someone's life. Tara, He has gifted you for His purposes. :)
DeleteThis is absolutely beautiful! You are such an amazing woman, and you encourage and inspire me. Thank you for sharing this today, andfor being so real with us.
ReplyDeleteAnastasia Rose
walk-in-the-rain-with-me.blogspot.com
Thank you. I was afraid for so long of sharing, I am so thankful He gave me the courage to start writing. How long have you been writing?
DeleteForgiveness really does help us learn to move forward and heal. Holding on to anger and bitterness is just a stumbling block we think helps us, but really doesn't.
ReplyDeleteYes, and they just feed off of each other. But His grace and glory are so amazing. His sweet voice draws me in and I just can't help but to let it go so I can hold tightly to HIs hand.
DeleteWhat a tender post. I've been struggling this week about feeling SO downtrodden (a lot of it is due to recent illness), and needed the reminder to lay it before the Almighty God.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about your illness I will definitely be praying for you! I am so glad this encouraged you today and reminded you to cast your cares on Him for He cares for you!
DeleteWow. Just beautiful. Sometimes we forget that a potter has to do a lot of work with a lump of clay in order to turn it into something beautiful! But we can take heart because we know he has a master plan that will shape us into the exact vessel that we need to be.
ReplyDeleteYes, He reminds me quite often to remain confident in His plan for I am his handiwork, created for HIs purposes not my own.
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