Do my questions perplex or offend Christ?
1:05 PM
I couldn’t figure out what brought him more pleasure the
untwisting of the small cap or the drinking in of fresh cold water. My littlest sat for minutes on end taking the
cap on and off. Tickled, excited,
determined, and full of self-pride of his accomplishment and newfound
discovery. Intently I fixated my eyes
upon his tiny hands. A loose grip and
tiny fingers toyed with the small cap.
Eyes filled with wonder and amazement.
He drank deep even to the point of water dripping down chin, sliding
down cheeks, and spilling over into his lap.
This must be what it feels like to unlock something holding
such precious refreshing liquid. I feel
as though this is where I am in my journey with the Holy One. This twisting and untwisting of thoughts and what I held to be truth leaves me speechless. His grace and love are being revealed in ways I never dreamt possible, challenging the very essence of who I am and everything I thought I was.
Wide-eyed and full of excitement I persevere through tedious
twisting and untwisting. I know now more than ever the unlocking of truth, real
truth, and His upside down backwards truth is refreshing.
If you see my fidgeting my hands, open handed, outstretched to heaven it
is because I am learning to refine my spiritual motor skills. My eyes are focusing on the small little caps
in my life. Caps that have kept liquid
love from pouring over me.
The only thing my littlest couldn’t quite grasp was the
tightening of the cap after he had drunk deeply, for this he needed my
help. As I continue on this quest of
wandering and wondering into His presence, I am sure I will need the grip of sweet
kind Holy spirit to retighten the cap of grace on my life. I do not want loose any
of the sweet truth she gives. I only
want to drink deep and pour it over heavy hearts and others who for far to long lived under the caps of disillusionment, false truths,
confused remarks of others, and took truth at face value instead of seeking the
face of Truth for ourselves.
I can hear her calling.
Wisdom. She is seated in the
depth of our King’s heart. I cannot
truly find myself or the wisdom I need for life without entering the chambers of His
heart. Here in the secret chambers, I can ask all the
questions I want. It is here, in the
secret, he will answer me.
Do you often
wonder if your questions perplex or
offend the heart of our Creator?
I think at one point I did.
Perhaps that is why for far too long I haven’t really heard from His
voice, revelatory truth. I have read truth written in books, spoken in sermons, and sung in songs, and these are valuable. However, they do not replace
hearing my Beloved’s voice for myself.
Your curiousness, your wonderment, your questions, your
hunger for knowledge fuels His delight in you.
He is intrigued with you, not offended by you. As with my little ones, their questions
reveal their love, eagerness, their trust, and their enthusiasm to learn. Their questions bring value to my words. They
listen and apply the answer to their lives, which brings me honor and respect. I
believe the same principle applies with our heavenly Father.
When you inquire of the Lord you bring honor to Him and great joy.
10 comments
Beautifully written and a great story. I love how you pulled your own parenting experience and related it to how God sees us because it is so true. Even more with God. He loves us and wants to nurture us and help us grow. Thanks for sharing such a beautiful story and providing encouragement. :)
ReplyDeleteAmanda yes I am learning so much about the Father and his love from my children!
DeleteBeautifully written! I love that analogy of the discovery of drinking from a water bottle and unlocking God's Truth in our lives. I pray this journey continues to bless and challenge you! I have realised in my life that it is the heart behind the question that determines how my God receives it. I may not get the answer I wanted to hear of course!
ReplyDeleteJo yes, I completely agree there was so much more I wanted to write within this post. I am learning to question because I really want to know his heart not question His heart towards me.
DeleteWhat a beautiful post. I love the connection you are making to the bottle cap. Thanks so much for the encouragement. This post is a blessing.
ReplyDeleteAlso, just had to say that your little boy is adorable. He reminds me of my son when he was that age with the blond hair and big brown eyes.
Robin, thank you. He is a joy in my life more than I could have ever dreamt.
DeleteBeautiful word pictures you painted for us! Love the water bottle analogy - makes me want to drink of Him more! God bless you sweet sister!
ReplyDeleteDoesn't it though as I was watching him I just want to drink more and more of His love.
DeleteLove your analogy. I agree that nothing beats being in His presence.
ReplyDeleteYes Id rather be there than anywhere else a doorkeeper if I had to!
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