Journey of a Wandering Heart
11:19 AMThis time last year I participated in my first 31 day challenge. I have never been one to shy aways from a challenge especially one that keeps me working hard and well coming back for more. I like a challenge. I may not always finish first or be the best but I love learning new things and the perseverance challenges develop in our hearts, mind, and body. I will be joining hundreds of writers in the 31 day challenge again this year.
I will be pulling back the curtains of my heart where I house a lot of thoughts. Sometimes these thoughts lead me on dangerous routes of discouragement. Over the past several months I have found myself in a continuous cycle of wondering, "When?", "How?", "Could I really even do 'that'?", and many other countless questions I ask myself day in and day out.
This way of thinking led me into discouragement and angst. I found myself frustrated, feeling insecure, insignificant, and under valued. I took a break from writing for several months to allow myself just breathe and to redirect my heart and my search for answers. I began asking the same questions just not to myself. Instead of looking and asking question in and of myself I began to inquire of the Lord. Why I even thought to ask myself questions in order to find the answers to begin with is baffling to me. I sometimes just have to laugh at this little heart of mine.
The last several months have be compromised of a lot of questioning the Lord and myself. I wandered aimlessly in my thought process for months and now I wonder at His thoughts and ways. I wander right into His presence when I feel the urge to come up with all the right answers and plans for my life.
Would you join me and so many others as we write for 31 one days? As we look into ourselves and share our hidden thoughts and secrets we realize we are never alone and we were never created to be alone. We need each other. You and I together we can cling to what is good, right, and true and make a glorious, awe, jaw dropping difference in this world. We are better together, Yes.
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Can't wait to read the words that God gives you this month, we are better together! #rahrahsisterhood :) By the pic of you in the side bar is beautiful!
ReplyDeleteToni thank you sweet sister! I am so glad have you along on this journey!
DeleteI wrote a blog a year or so ago called "when pondering becomes wandering"...you need to read this. We can fall in that "vain imagination" trap and the devil loves when we do. That is why we must guard our hearts with every bit of valor we can muster. Putting on the armor every day and double checking the buckles!!! You beautiful lady, I love your words - will be reading every day you write. xoxo
ReplyDeleteSusan yes please send me the link I would LOVE to read it!! I was just telling my brother about that verse the other day. Love you and I am so thankful for your encouragement and the words you pen!
DeleteThank you for opening that part of your heart. Questions have been such an important part of my faith journey...and yes we are made to be together. love that.
ReplyDeleteFor so long I think I actually thought it was wrong or bad to "question" God but I am learning that He loves and welcomes our questions. Thank you for stopping by today.
DeleteGlad to see you again this year!
ReplyDeleteThanks and I can't wait to get all kinds of tips from you sister! :)
DeleteI've been wondering and wandering a little bit myself lately. Looking forward to reading this series.
ReplyDeleteBarbie, good to know we are not alone. I think one of the enemy's greatest attacks is in deceiving us into thinking we are alone and secluded especially in our thoughts. Glad to have you with me in this series.
ReplyDeleteAmen, friend! I'm so good at thinking I'm all alone and it's all up to me and that I'm under-valued. I'm learning to lean on my Savior and seek my significance in Him.
ReplyDeleteIt is easy to fall into that trap. I would be lying if I said I don't constantly battle with feeling lonely. Somedays it is most definitely an uphill battle for sure. Despite what we feel I know just like you we are valued far more than we could ever really understand. #preachingtothechoir :) Yes, we have to daily seek Him and renew our hearts and minds.
DeleteLove your candor!! Can't wait to see what you have in store this month. I don't think there's anyone out there who can't relate to that kind of lost feeling you describe.
ReplyDeleteThank you. I look forward to having you along, I just love this time of year to connect and meet new friends!
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