How on earth will I ever get rid of all this mold?
7:10 PM
I could feel the chambers of my chest tightening. Lungs
clenching, heart pounding. I knew by the
sheer way my body was responding I was about to embark on something
my heart knew was wrong. Every fiber of
my being was warning me within. I couldn’t hardly
breathe the pounding was so hard it hurt from the inside out.
this I keep on
doing.
Romans 7:19
For the flesh
desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit
what is contrary to the flesh. They are in
conflict with each other,
so that you are not to do whatever you want.
Galatians 5:17
Have you ever felt this way? Heart beating, soul-breathing truth into the
depth of your being. Wisdom unfolds right
there inside of you, right in the very core of who you are, and yet you choose to
ignore it. Wisdom that if heeded would
have kept you from harm?
The days and nights to come would render me helpless on a
downward spiral of wreck less emotion. I
spun out of control into nights full of sin.
I foolishly ignored the wisdom in my heart and soul and soared waywardly
on a path of destruction. A full year
would go by, as I hid in the shadows of my sin.
I became a con artist. I was a
lovely, graceful Christian by day and an addict of sin by night. Lies slowly trickled into my everyday life
affecting friendships and even co-workers.
I had allowed a slow leak of sin into my life to go unattended. Much
like a real leak that begins behind a wall or in a hidden place causes mold to grow beneath the surface so the leak of sin was growing mold in my heart. It was
only a matter of time before this mold surfaced for all to see.
Mold surfaces. Sin
surfaces. Aren’t you thankful for the surfacing of sin and mold? I mean don’t
get me wrong I am not thankful for leaks or the damage they cause. Just like I am not thankful for sin or the
damage it causes. Mold and sin that
doesn’t surface, for long periods, of time cause devastating loss and damages. I
am so thankful it surfaces in the hearts of our lives.
“But you are a chosen people, a royal
priesthood, a holy nation, God's special possession, that you may declare the
praises of
Him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful
light.”
Have you ever wondered what’s it
going to take? What can wash away my sin,
nothing but the blood of Jesus? My heart
now beats with sweet relief and even dances upon the shame of my past with
forgiveness.
8 comments
We moved into a house that had been seriously neglected for almost a decade. Let me tell you how much I relate to this post! It seems harmless, like you can ignore it, but the faster you dress it, the less expensive and invasive the problem becomes!!
ReplyDeleteYes we have had mold issues before and its a nightmare!
DeleteSin has a way of creeping in. But we are not perfect. We are all sinners and saints in need of God's grace. This is a great post friend even though you felt like it wasn't. Keep writing. You can do this!
ReplyDeleteYou are always so encouraging doesn't it though, just like those weeds it just creeps in and before we know we are a hot mess in need of a lot of grace and forgiveness!
DeleteI have been exactly in that place as well, Christian by day, sin addict by night.. so,so thankful for the precious blood of Jesus and that He never, ever gave up on me.So glad that you pushed through and wrote this.
ReplyDeleteTobi, yes I sometimes just can't understand how he never gives up but wow he is so faithful!
DeleteAnd MOLD stinks - like rotting celery. YOUR POST IS real and good. Laura, I was this post. O! for the redeeming blood of Jesus. What can wash away my sin? NOTHING but the blood of Jesus. Write on!
ReplyDeleteYES! Nothing but His blood, how great is our God! If not for grace where would I be?
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