How on earth will I ever get rid of all this mold?

7:10 PM

I could feel the chambers of my chest tightening. Lungs clenching, heart pounding.  I knew by the sheer way my body was responding I was about to embark on something my heart knew was wrong.  Every fiber of my being was warning me within.  I couldn’t hardly breathe the pounding was so hard it hurt from the inside out.

 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—
this I keep on doing.
Romans 7:19

For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit
 what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other,
 so that you are not to do whatever you want.
Galatians 5:17

Have you ever felt this way?  Heart beating, soul-breathing truth into the depth of your being.  Wisdom unfolds right there inside of you, right in the very core of who you are, and yet you choose to ignore it.  Wisdom that if heeded would have kept you from harm?

The days and nights to come would render me helpless on a downward spiral of wreck less emotion.  I spun out of control into nights full of sin.  I foolishly ignored the wisdom in my heart and soul and soared waywardly on a path of destruction.  A full year would go by, as I hid in the shadows of my sin.  I became a con artist.  I was a lovely, graceful Christian by day and an addict of sin by night.  Lies slowly trickled into my everyday life affecting friendships and even co-workers.

I had allowed a slow leak of sin into my life to go unattended.  Much like a real leak that begins behind a wall or in a hidden place causes mold to grow beneath the surface so the leak of sin was growing mold in my heart.  It was only a matter of time before this mold surfaced for all to see. 

Mold surfaces.  Sin surfaces. Aren’t you thankful for the surfacing of sin and mold? I mean don’t get me wrong I am not thankful for leaks or the damage they cause.   Just like I am not thankful for sin or the damage it causes.  Mold and sin that doesn’t surface, for long periods, of time cause devastating loss and damages. I am so thankful it surfaces in the hearts of our lives.


“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God's special possession, that you may declare the praises of
Him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.”

Have you ever wondered what’s it going to take?  What can wash away my sin, nothing but the blood of Jesus?  My heart now beats with sweet relief and even dances upon the shame of my past with forgiveness. 





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8 comments

  1. We moved into a house that had been seriously neglected for almost a decade. Let me tell you how much I relate to this post! It seems harmless, like you can ignore it, but the faster you dress it, the less expensive and invasive the problem becomes!!

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    1. Yes we have had mold issues before and its a nightmare!

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  2. Sin has a way of creeping in. But we are not perfect. We are all sinners and saints in need of God's grace. This is a great post friend even though you felt like it wasn't. Keep writing. You can do this!

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    1. You are always so encouraging doesn't it though, just like those weeds it just creeps in and before we know we are a hot mess in need of a lot of grace and forgiveness!

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  3. I have been exactly in that place as well, Christian by day, sin addict by night.. so,so thankful for the precious blood of Jesus and that He never, ever gave up on me.So glad that you pushed through and wrote this.

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    1. Tobi, yes I sometimes just can't understand how he never gives up but wow he is so faithful!

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  4. And MOLD stinks - like rotting celery. YOUR POST IS real and good. Laura, I was this post. O! for the redeeming blood of Jesus. What can wash away my sin? NOTHING but the blood of Jesus. Write on!

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    1. YES! Nothing but His blood, how great is our God! If not for grace where would I be?

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